by Elizabeth Goddard
As Christians we each believe ourselves to be followers of Christ. We say Jesus is Lord and Savior. Some say one or the other, but that’s a different discussion. We call out to God, ask Him for His will to be done, pray a thousand prayers for a thousand different wants and needs. We wax and wane, if we’re honest, in our relationship with Him.
Some know about Him, which isn’t to say they know him personally and intimately.
I’ve been going through some significant struggles lately. Well, actually this whole year has been tough. I know of others who have suffered more, sure. But my struggles are the kind that no amount of control and manipulation on my part can change anything. And it almost feels like no amount of prayer can change it either.
I keep imagining myself dropping to my knees. And yes, I do this too. . .but the struggles have that image pressing into my mind all day, where on my knees, I don’t actually pray. I just say one word.
“God. . .”
There’s so much on my heart I don’t know where to begin.
But I had an epiphany, one of those personal revelations. You know the ones. They stay with you for a while and then eventually, weeks or months down the road, they drift off and you’ve lost that illuminating aspect of the thing. Or at least that’s what happens to me.
When we finally get to the place—maybe it takes years or many trials—that we realize we have no ability to control our lives or change anything at all on our own power, and life isn’t what we hoped it would be, then we can finally realize there is nothing else, and THAT’s when we can fully realize, accept AND appreciate that God is our everything.
Falling to our knees is entirely appropriate.
There are innumerous Bible verses on trials and tribulations, longsuffering, patience, and on and on. I read through them to find the right one that speaks to me in this situation. In how I see things with this revelation and confirms it—an epiphany which seems so obvious but not when it hits you in the heart and you get it.
For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time [are] not worthy [to be compared] with the glory which shall be revealed in us. Romans 8:18
To all those who are suffering too, this is good news!
He is our everything.